DIY: Flush Your Fears. Post Your Prayers.

I am an avid Pinterest peruser. It’s one of my favorite social channels mainly because creativity overflows and negativity is absent. If you want to remind yourself there’s a sliver of hope for humanity, look at Pinterest. The gifts people possess are given away to the world. I mean it amazes me that someone used their creative juices to conjure up Unicorn Poop Slime. I can’t even make this stuff up. If that’s not creativity at its finest, I don’t know what is. The DIY I have in mind, isn’t as mystical or magical, but it proved helpful for me and is just the right mix of silly and serious. Have you ever had worry wash up in your heart, felt frozen by fear, or constantly focused on “flaws?” Me too! In fact, a severe feeling of inadequacy for ministry, marriage and motherhood swept over be again recently. In the past few months, these feelings of inadequacy have bubbled up, but now it’s an equivalent of a 8 on the Richter scale of emotional earthquakes.  In similar meltdowns,  I’ve heard a popular saying that exclaims, “Get your act together,” but what I want to say is, “Get your faith together, sister. It’s […]

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Fear of Rejection

Over the years this paper slipped between the fridge and counter at my mom’s house. I still remember the day I was handed this tiny piece of paper. All the kids were chattering about their high school rank and wondering who would be at the top of the class. Nobody had announced it and everybody was eager to know. Intrigued, I hesitantly walked to the counselor’s office to find out where I stacked up on the list. She scribbled on this piece of paper, told me congratulations and passed it my way. Out of 505 students, I was number one. Perfect GPA. I folded this piece of paper so tightly you can still see the lingering crease marks from years ago. I was completely shocked. Once word got out, the kids at school no longer called me Tiffany, but referred to me as “number one.” I’m not sharing this to toot my horn or reminisce on the glory days. I’m sharing this because this fragment of paper represents my deeply rooted fear of rejection and failure that I’ve been paralyzed by for years. Would I have graduated first in my class? I don’t know. But what I do know is […]

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The cure for the Insecure: Overcoming the Illness and Infection of Insecurity

 The Illness: What is Insecurity?  Insecurity: Uncertainty or anxiety about oneself; lack of confidence. “she had a deep sense of insecurity” synonyms: lack of confidence, self-doubt, diffidence unassertiveness, timidity, uncertainty, nervousness, inhibition  I’m not happy to admit that lately words that I normally wouldn’t use to describe me have become my norm. As I read this definition again the pang in my heart intensifies. Not only does it relate to my state of mind the past couple of weeks, but I also know in my heart being insecure goes against who God has created me to be. I’ve struggled with a bout of insecurity over the past month. Insecurity has infiltrated my system. I can only write this now because I  can at least catch glimpses of light at the end of the tunnel. I’m not where I want to be, but thank God I’m not where I used to be. I’m moving forward in faith and my feelings can catch up with me later. The Infection: How dangerous is it?  Insecurity blindsided me. Insecurity took a joyful, compassionate, vibrant woman overflowing with excitement and happiness surrounding a promotion at work and turned her into a doubting, uncertain, nervous, and timid Tiffany. […]

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